Hey look everyone, Ryan posted!

Greetings to all in Blogland! Sorry it's been a while since I've made a post - poor Ryan (now I'm talking about myself in the 3rd person - taking a cue from Muhammed Ali) had some login troubles but now I should be able to blog constantly.

Just a quick update - we're closing in on the end of our homestudy. Last weekend we went to the day-long adoption workshop that's required as part of our process. Lots of good information, but most importantly we met some really great people, some of whom we might become good friends with. There was a nice sense of empathy throughout the room, almost a sense of relief that there are other people out there doing the same things we're doing.

Trina has been an absolute godsend the past few weeks - I'm trying to hustle some more jazz guitar gigs and she's been essentially keeping our household running, gracefully putting up with late-night practice sessions and plenty of evenings playing "gig widow" while I'm out playing/schlepping P.A. gear. Her high school friend Matt came into town last weekend, and he's also a musician. The two of us barely knew each other but we stayed up jamming until about 2 a.m. Trina's work at her art classes are really starting to pay off too - she did a drawing of me and him playing and she totally nailed our poses. She's way overdue for a nice meal cooked by someone other than herself, and maybe a nice bath or two drawn to boot.

We'll be submitting our I-600 form soon. I got my passport photos and I'm bummed you can't smile in them anymore. The last time I got mine taken I was super-skinny and had on a turtleneck and suede jacket - throw some shades on me and I would've looked like an eastern European character from a James Bond movie. In the new pictures I just look bored.

Speaking of Europe, this blog entry is going to end like a stereotypical European movie, in which there's no arc or highpoint to the story followed by an earth-shattering conclusion. It just stops!

Long long long winding road

This will probably be my shortest post ever. But two plus years feels like a really long time. dang. Feeling discouraged as we've already had two and a half years of wait and heartache. Most of the time I feel positive. But today's hard. I'm hearing announcement after announcement of new pregnancies and I'm feeling very sad. Wondering and sad.